Head Spinning...
Heart Acheing...
Losing Grip........
What Do I Do??
I Need something.....
I dunno what.............
I Need something.....
Something Real.........
Something to hold on to....
Someone There for me.....
I NEED YOU......................
DO YOU KNOW ????????
WHO YOU ARE?????????
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its ok..
even i dunno who you are...
even if you exist...
i wish you did though...
cuz i need you right now...
more than i ever did b4...
i am confused...
i need you to help me ...
I am hurt...
will you heal me?
where are you?
when can i see you?
will i EVER see you?
tired and broken...
will you piece me back together?
Will you revive me?
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this lonely soul is leaving...
doomed to eternally wandering alone.
searching for something that will never be...
looking for something that can never be there...
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Dried Tear Stains......

WTF Problems at home..

CANT TAKE IT!!!
FUCK MY LIFE DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!
ARG!!!!!
WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE TRASH...
I CAN NEVER GET A BREAK CAN I?
IN ANY ASPECT OF MY LIFE...
FREAKIN' HELL...
ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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FOR 19 YEARS.
I NEVER KNEW..
HOW WELL THEY HID THE TRUTH
HOW WELL I LIVED A LIE...
SOME ONE HELP ME...
I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME...
ANYBODY
PLEASE...

Titles Are Overated...
And i cant think of any..
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Days and Nights passing
and they dun pass by quietly.
i have been thinking about her..
DUN WORRY NOT HER HER
Some one else...
AND I DUN LIKE HER
just that she is a GREAT Friend
This so to clear up the dust...
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School tomolo...
LONG day...
heck...
I AM GONNA SLEEP IN CLASS
btw... BENNY LIM SUCKS!!!!!!!!
hmm that felt better.....

hmm,,,

I dun understand it...
a simple comment hurts so much...
it is just one line...
and i am not even sure if it is directed at me...
even if it wasn't it still hurts...
i guess... feelings haven't died...
I dun know if they ever will...

heya..

busy Emoing and playing Emo songs at home...
that's what happens when you got nothing happening on CNY... yeah.. i am losing my mind.
at home with ma lonesome playing ma fender...
what else could i need...
maybe a girl to be here with me...
haha...

to those who dun know...
i am musically inclined...
take that posers...
whaha...
well time to stop blogging and start practicing...
who knows... i MIGHT make it big someday...

New Phone... Moto RAZR V3XX
yeah... this means i can post photos ... and lots of them....



one of the first few pics i took
emo ain't it?
well... i will start uploading
photos as i take them.....

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peenuts day was fun...
though i wish i had not been that sick
getting sicker by the second...
but i had loads of fun...
thanks guys...

Results Are in...
Maths A 74%
Econs A 74%
physics A 75%
Gp c5 50%
Dream Results
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I really need to say thanks to nani...
her little little stupid smses...
she made my day when i made hers..
haha...
i got V dae gift...
but on that day... i only gave stuff to 1 person
no not that person you think it is...
i gave giftS to nani...
i felt she needed someone to make her day..
so I did...
Keep them ok... i never gave anything to anyone else...
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SHE IS ATTACHED!!!!!!!!
nothing new in the story of my life...
i hate it...
i never get it right...
i will remain single for now..
i do not want to hurt myself again...
thanks arfie, nani and gwen...
you guys made me keep my distance...
i suck at this...

LOSER
thats all i am
LONER
thats all i'll ever be
SMILE
is what i'll do for now...

its coming...

I hate it...
the day is almost here...
the Most hated day of my life..
the day that i feel so lame...
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i hate my life...
i am scared...
i feel so lame...
sorry guys...
if i have been an ass...
i hate myself being this way..
i hate it...
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i am expecting the worse...
that way it will hurt less...
i definitely think she is attached...
just scared to find out for sure...
i feel so lame...
LOSER

Falling...

I am falling...
i know i am...
And i can't stop falling...
I want to be with you...
but... i still dun know whether she is single...
i want to know..
but i cant seem to ask her..
i dun want it to end...
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they day is coming...
i am still alone...
i would ask her...
but... i have no confidence..
i want to ask her..
i really do...
she is nice...
we talk a lot..
is there a chance?
i still hate the day...
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Peenuts out again...
another gift... another week...
rukie is his name...
a brown cocker spaniel...
seeing her smile makes us all happy..
i love Peenuts...
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exams just over...
today is a happy day...
exchanged gifts with Llama...
she loved the stuff i got her...
i love the dog tags...
i got her dogs...
she got me dog tags..
the whole day was spent messaging her..
she is so cute....
i got back 2 papers today...
I PASSED GP..
c5 25/50
I GOT AN "A" FOR ECONS
mcq 19/25
essay 18/25
37/50
woohoo "A"
i love it...
today i am so happy...
gave mich yeo 4rt her pig too..
she loves it... whaha...
i am happy... i really am...
i went to JP later... with PeeNuts...
i am a happy man...
d^^|b

WTF

school is shit... really... shit...
ok not exactly school but the management...
they are letting go of TOP students...
bunch of idiots... What is wrong with them...
O levels?
after 2 plus years here already?
got damn it...
makes you wonder doesn't it...
how a simple piece of PAPER is held to such esteem
ITS JUST A PIECE OF PAPER FOR GODS SAKE!!!!
Ig, Kai mun and Mariam...
all the best in what ever you guys do..
this school had is never going anywhere...
not until there is a changing of the guard..
bunch of twerps...
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feeling lonely...
getting closer to the date...
quote that made the day...
"st pats is a neighborhood school"
haha..
I miss you...
you presence...
you stupid jokes...
i guess i am falling for you...
hmmm..... got to let go again....
i am such a loser...
then again...
whats new...

Hmm..

hey... new skin... as usual... the day of love and kisses is coming...
and it would not be complete without a new lonely blog...
i am being stupid.
i know...
but its the truth isn't it?
i am lonely... every one is once in a while...
just some "whiles" last longer than the rest...
whaha... i hate the day.... i really do...
nothing personal... its just that day...

ThoughTz

Hmm... studied at west coast...
slacked at the playground...
had Q&A with the peenuts..
arfie... listen to the moon and the sun.. whaha
i like Q&A...
but...
the topics need to change...
dun like talking about love life...
stinks...
whaha...
student politics is good though...
whaha...
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uhm.. i am a little confused...
i guess i still have a little feeling for her...
but can anyone give up that feeling totally...
i am unlucky aren't i?
they are always attached...
or they get attached to good friends...
so... what should i do...
arfie...thanks for the valentine offer...
but its just not the same...
you still got badot...
feels weird...
not that i cant...
just that i dun want too...
cuz... i really dun want to see or hear about couples...
makes me feel too much like a loser...
but then again... whats new??
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P & C SUCKS!!!!!!!!

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Weekend... well... spent it mostly with church peepz... interesting...
SAT
CG at lizzie's place...
had fun...
CONRAD HOTEL CAKE!!!
lizzie mine and joels birth celebrated...
cake was delish... arg...
get more phillip..
went to lagoon at east coast...
ate insanely good food... whahaha
me and leong told agnes about our school politics
unity peepz... thats the way to go..
SUN
... wen down to carls junior..
met agnes jun kit leong philip and co.
plan was to study B4 service...
i got some work done... leong was late
JK... ns study what shit?
agnes... had to run for a meeting..
phillip sat there rotting and speaking in tamil... damn funny...
service pastored by rev. dennis burke from texas... kool...
he brought up stuff we talked about on sat... insane man..
now me and leong got renewed faith...
benny.. you shall know what is PSALM 133:1
behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!
heard that... combine the organizations...
let us prosper together...
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now... i am a little stupid...
i should not go looking for it...
i should just stop...
everytime i do i get burned...
get dissapointed...
i am the loser...
i prefer it this way...
no need to go through elaborate processes to get to this point..
its easier on the heart mind and soul...
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